my baby love

Dear Madeline,
You are almost 8 months old. Where has the time gone? How did you get so big? I feel like just yesterday you were my newborn baby, all snuggled up and napping on my chest. It's blowing my mind how fast you grow and learn. Your daddy and I are trying our best to record and remember each moment, each expression, every giggle and sound, because we know that in a couple days you might completely change things up.

We love you more than you know... When we were pregnant, friends and family would tell us to get ready for a new kind of love, the love for our child. I thought I had a pretty good idea of what to expect. We were so excited to meet you. Your room was ready. The car seat was in my car months in advance. Your clothes were washed and hung in the closet. You were always the most important and first consideration as we prepared and made plans.

Then you were born. And it turns out we had no idea whatsoever what this love would be like. Being your mother is a completely consuming, heart wrenching, never ending, life-changing experience of love. I can never get enough of you. I'm watching you sleep on the monitor, and I just have the urge to go upstairs, scoop you up, and let you sleep with me tonight. I miss you when you aren't in my arms. I know I'm "not supposed to" let you sleep in our bed, but I love waking up at night to see you sleeping soundly next to me or snuggling closer.

You own my heart. My love for you runs down to the core of who I am, deeper than anything I ever imagined. And I know I will love you even more tomorrow, and more the day after that. I thank God every day for blessing my life with you.

Truest Love,
Your Mama